不起眼的小草

我很累 一直没有人能够懂我 我很不开心 就连最亲密的你也不懂
我习惯了假装坚强，习惯了一个人面对所有
我不知道自己到底想怎样

有时候
我可以很开心的和每个人说话 可以很放肆
可是没有人知道那不过是伪装 很刻意的伪装
我可以让自己假装得很快乐很快乐
可是却找不到快乐的源泉 只会让自己傻笑

现在的我
不习惯把事跟别人说 因为我不习惯别人用可怜的眼光看我
其实，我很珍惜身边的所有人
只是爱你的压力让我善于遗忘 把那些记忆通通遗忘
我以为遗忘可以让自己快乐起来
可我感觉到的却是更多的寂寞

黑夜来袭 周围的空气很躁
一个人坐在窗前 对着窗外的租屋发呆
也不知道自己在想什么
怀念过去 仅此而已

即使心里有好多事 我也宁愿憋在心里
不是我不愿说 而是我疲惫了 最多也只能写写部落格
就算说出来也改变不了什么 换来的只是泪水与寂寞
还有你的烦躁与叹气

我不再喜欢追逐打闹 却很想和以前一样活蹦乱跳 开怀大笑
我沉默的不再爱说话 却很想找你倾诉所有
我喜欢在很静很静的黑夜 关了灯让寂寞把我包裹 但却又害怕黑暗

你对我的爱 保存期限到底有多久 截至日期到底是何时
以前的我常常为你掉泪 不知什么时候开始我已不再为你流泪
而今天不争气的我 脸上又挂着两行咸咸的泪水
我讨厌你对我的不谅解 讨厌我不是你唯一一个可以倾诉心事的对象

我输了 哪一天我心脏负荷不了 就是我离开的时候
心很痛很痛 我连你一个朋友都比不上 就连你要回国也不想让我知道
你的点点滴滴我什么都不懂 我很努力很努力想给你快乐
但是换来的只有不开心 原来
我只是根不起眼的小草

范瑋琪-Love & FanFan 最重要的決定 MV

我常在想應該再也找不到
任何人像你對我那麼好
好到我的家人也被照料
我的朋友還為你撐腰

你還是有一堆毛病改不掉
拗起來氣得仙女都跳腳
可是人生完美的事太少
我們不能什麼都想要

你是我最重要的決定
我願意　每天在你身邊甦醒
就連吵架也很過癮　不會冷冰
因為真愛沒有輸贏　只有親密

你是我最重要的決定
我願意　打破對未知的恐懼
就算流淚也能放晴　將心比心
因為幸福沒有捷徑　只有經營

你是我最重要的決定
我願意　每天在你身邊甦醒
就連吵架也很過癮　不會冷冰
因為真愛沒有輸贏　只有親密

你是我最重要的決定
我願意　打破對未知的恐懼
就算流淚也能放晴　將心比心
因為幸福沒有捷徑　只有經營

幸福的一对- 祝福范范与黑人

A dilemma

Picture speaks thousand words, best phrase of the night. Treasure someone means a lot to you, bad things happen but love always there. Use your heart to judge when you don't believe your eyes anymore.

Everyone will find their love, just the matter of time. Don't believe in love? Nothing to do with me. Well....Nowadays...

I see no light, it is all darkness.

I see no hope, it is all dissapointment. 

I see myself, the game is still on.

Trying to make things better, eventually it is a failure. I live myself in the past, get to know the future, but it is just too unpredictable. Life is hard, yet i survive. Love in uneasy, yet i agree on that. Human is special, as everyone have their own thinking. The word from you, the rest is just like a knife stab on my heart, it is not pain but bleeding. I care as i should not care. Why I care? I have no idea.

Freaky Saturday

Finally i was back to this lovely place, my home. I'm totally exhausted lately due to tonnes of assignments and also the attack of sinus, cough and fever. I hope all of these leave me as soon as possible.

My nephews, Jayven was here for the entire weekend & his 3 month old brother, Cayven. Well representative of kids, laughs & cries are what you get to hear for the entire day.

                                       This is little Jayven

        Guess what is he doing? Kissing his uncle (my bro) in the picture :D 
 

                                  Deeply in love

                                 More pics of him... 

                                           *Grin*

                                  Finally a better one :)

                            The only pic of baby Cayven =)
 

I'm gonna end my post with the pics of this 2 little kids. Nothing much to write cause nothing much happened. A sentence for a friend of mine who's currently facing some personal issues. Well ignore the F*retard stuff around you, because you're still the awesome one. Think you're screw up? No, because you still surviving yet. Like i said, who cares? Cheers anyway :)

Signing off

Holla holla

Stayed home whole day as lesson and meeting have been canceled. My cough & sinus medicine really has it strong effect that can make me slept for 10 hours long. Although to some people 10 hours may not consider long, but to me, yes it is. Don't really sleep so long as it makes me even more sleepy when i woke up. 

It's a 'politics' day! Sounds weird? Yeah i've got an assignment that all about politics and society which managed to kill all of us. Never realized that searching journals can be so irritating and annoying. Staring at my screen in the whole afternoon and yet didn't managed to get a single journal that is suitable for our topic. Well it's all bout reading & analyzing & also paraphrasing. How lifeless :(  Meeting Xueliang for dinner @ Bugis junction at 18:30 in the afternoon, but it's only 16:00 now & my stomach started to ruled. Oh i need food :p

Went to Starbucks with Xue Liang after dinner. Never thought i would bump into so many psb people studying and struggling there. I didn't bring any books along with me though as it was a sudden decision to hang-out at Starbucks, sort of. If you ever dream of entering or studying in Newcastle, think twice before it's too late. Hmm, no...maybe twice is not enough, think thrice is better :) No joke. I got no idea why I'm such an 'anti-Newcastle'. 

Anyway have a really wonderful girls-talk with her. We share almost everything, life, family, studies, and our loves one. It's thursday night, yeah one of my baby gaming night. Well didn't get to chat with him tonight before i go to bed but it's alright i still miss him though. 

A hard night, lots to think.Take a look from the window, there is a lot to sigh about. I believed, tomorrow will be a better day. 

Good night :)

A simple day

Ahem yeah, i've done my access test pretty badly today. As you know, computer stuffs really sucks and i dislike it a lot lot >< Still i gotta forced myself to learn in order to get a pass :p
 

Went to Bugis with shu-garr to make a dinner reservation for his friend's birthday celebration. Initial plan was @ Foodforthoughts, the outlet that located near to Bugis. Unfortunately the place was already taken and was not available on the day that we want. Therefore we went to Caramel Cafe instead. I'm loving this cafe so much, adorable design they have :D Looking forward for their food & of course, not to forget dessert as well. *Yuppiee*

Gosh I've been having this fetish on the cake called 'scones'. Couldn't resist this tasty and delicious little thingy.

                      Blueberry scone from Coffee club =)

For dinner, we went to an American restaurant- Charlie Brown Cafe, located at 313 Somerset. Well it offers a distinctive mid-market food and beverages that was set in an unique sensitivity environment. I love their cute cartoons all over the wall and to me, it creates a refreshing experiences. I had my Turkey ham croissant and he had his baked rice :D Would rate the food as 8/10 :)

                                     Cream of mushroom :p

                                                                     

                                       Mini baked rice

After dinner, we went to Orchard Central to have our favourite dessert session, Ben & Jerry's ice-cream/ with brownies :D (Oh-so-sinful)

                                  Taa-dahh !!! Here you go :)

We then went to roof garden that located on top of the building. Yes you're right, the place is fully featured with gorgeously landscape. The garden actually offers quite respite, yet breathtaking views of the scintillating cityscape. At the roof garden, there is also a selection of dining treasures, cocktails bars & lounges. We love the scenery and feels so cosy when the winds blew. It has been quite some time to have a nice chat with you, shu-garr. Yeah I made it today. Yes i'm loving it so much, talk to you when there is only you and me, respiring the same air, together. Although i'm kinda tired at the moment, especially with blisters on my foot, but I'm still happy to be with you, all the time. Hoping that we have more & more happy hour together.

Good night all :)