The past

Helloooo peeps, i'm back. I've been stop blogging since the year of 2010 due to the multi-task and thousands of apologies for that. I won't deny that i'm a lousy blogger anyway. Whenever i have the mood to blog, i don't have the time, but when i have the time to do so, i don't have the mood. Screw me for procrastinating everything and all the time.


Well, time flies. It's the beginning of the new semester of year 3 study.  During the period of time when i was kinda missing from the 'scene', many changes have been happening in my life.

This is an image that i got it from a friend and i found that it best suits my mess feeling right now. I felt like digging a hole under and hide inside everyday when i woke up from the bed and i knew that i've got to face the reality. Life is like a riding bicycle, you don't fall when you stop pedaling.

I believed that everyone has their own secret, and me too. It's hard not to look back. Sometimes it seems like we sugar coat the past, make it much more shiny that it really was. I  knew that it is only get it or give up, there's no other choice. Beauty outside, beast inside. How long do i need to wake up from the nightmare?
It's sad when someone you know becomes someone you knew, and someone you love, becomes someone you hate. The cheerful smile of mine had gone and maybe gone forever. Where is the man who can heal this fragile life?

First blog of 2010

03/05/2010  Monday

Hello peeps, the lazy bugs is back! My bloggie have been dead for the past few month since October of 2009. It was due to the heavy tasks that i have to work on it which couldn't be omitted. Well, the super short mid-term break had over and here the hell has begun. Didn't manage to get a wink of sleep at all last night. Feeling super tired and sleepy right now but still wanna blog a little before i go to the bed. Anyway, i'm back to Singapore now. Having mixed feeling, was missing certain things there in Pontian but i'm not sure what i'm really missing too. Maybe i'm so used with the freedom i have there and always being around with friend where i can be myself. 

Yesterday was an awful day for me. When i'm not fully recover from my sick yet, here comes the 'outstation of blessing'. I got tanned by the sun and it caused me sun-burned. My skin has become darker and darker day to day. Oh i hate it! Anyway, this first week of classes are quite relaxing where there are no tutorials for the first week of class. Woohoo~

I miss you so much. Wondering if you know or do you feel the same. When i totally lost control over my emotions, fear and mixed feeling started to rule. I think i know deep inside, i would pause and hesitate a moment, all i have to do is to admit and face it. XD

A new beginning comes after an ending

I'm praying really hard for everything to be better in year 2010.