Holla holla

Stayed home whole day as lesson and meeting have been canceled. My cough & sinus medicine really has it strong effect that can make me slept for 10 hours long. Although to some people 10 hours may not consider long, but to me, yes it is. Don't really sleep so long as it makes me even more sleepy when i woke up. 

It's a 'politics' day! Sounds weird? Yeah i've got an assignment that all about politics and society which managed to kill all of us. Never realized that searching journals can be so irritating and annoying. Staring at my screen in the whole afternoon and yet didn't managed to get a single journal that is suitable for our topic. Well it's all bout reading & analyzing & also paraphrasing. How lifeless :(  Meeting Xueliang for dinner @ Bugis junction at 18:30 in the afternoon, but it's only 16:00 now & my stomach started to ruled. Oh i need food :p

Went to Starbucks with Xue Liang after dinner. Never thought i would bump into so many psb people studying and struggling there. I didn't bring any books along with me though as it was a sudden decision to hang-out at Starbucks, sort of. If you ever dream of entering or studying in Newcastle, think twice before it's too late. Hmm, no...maybe twice is not enough, think thrice is better :) No joke. I got no idea why I'm such an 'anti-Newcastle'. 

Anyway have a really wonderful girls-talk with her. We share almost everything, life, family, studies, and our loves one. It's thursday night, yeah one of my baby gaming night. Well didn't get to chat with him tonight before i go to bed but it's alright i still miss him though. 

A hard night, lots to think.Take a look from the window, there is a lot to sigh about. I believed, tomorrow will be a better day. 

Good night :)

A simple day

Ahem yeah, i've done my access test pretty badly today. As you know, computer stuffs really sucks and i dislike it a lot lot >< Still i gotta forced myself to learn in order to get a pass :p
 

Went to Bugis with shu-garr to make a dinner reservation for his friend's birthday celebration. Initial plan was @ Foodforthoughts, the outlet that located near to Bugis. Unfortunately the place was already taken and was not available on the day that we want. Therefore we went to Caramel Cafe instead. I'm loving this cafe so much, adorable design they have :D Looking forward for their food & of course, not to forget dessert as well. *Yuppiee*

Gosh I've been having this fetish on the cake called 'scones'. Couldn't resist this tasty and delicious little thingy.

                      Blueberry scone from Coffee club =)

For dinner, we went to an American restaurant- Charlie Brown Cafe, located at 313 Somerset. Well it offers a distinctive mid-market food and beverages that was set in an unique sensitivity environment. I love their cute cartoons all over the wall and to me, it creates a refreshing experiences. I had my Turkey ham croissant and he had his baked rice :D Would rate the food as 8/10 :)

                                     Cream of mushroom :p

                                                                     

                                       Mini baked rice

After dinner, we went to Orchard Central to have our favourite dessert session, Ben & Jerry's ice-cream/ with brownies :D (Oh-so-sinful)

                                  Taa-dahh !!! Here you go :)

We then went to roof garden that located on top of the building. Yes you're right, the place is fully featured with gorgeously landscape. The garden actually offers quite respite, yet breathtaking views of the scintillating cityscape. At the roof garden, there is also a selection of dining treasures, cocktails bars & lounges. We love the scenery and feels so cosy when the winds blew. It has been quite some time to have a nice chat with you, shu-garr. Yeah I made it today. Yes i'm loving it so much, talk to you when there is only you and me, respiring the same air, together. Although i'm kinda tired at the moment, especially with blisters on my foot, but I'm still happy to be with you, all the time. Hoping that we have more & more happy hour together.

Good night all :)       

 

Mood flow

Hello peeps. I've been abandoning this blog for years. Okay finally i got the time to blog a little bit. Maybe it was because i've so much things to digest recently. I choose to blog as i know that i can't speak to anyone, no matter to you, or to my sisters. I just feeling kinda lost right now :(

 

Well, life-oh-life! It's all about dilemma, unsatisfaction, and decisions which i hate so much. But still life goes on. 

Though i'm getting more freedom nowadays, however i'm feeling so lost, wondering what i really want for life. When i'm alone, everything haunts my mind. No one knows what's gonna happen in future, thus, how i'm gonna make decision. Smiling on the face but it may not be true in heart. Different expressions when i'm in front and behind the door.

Loving life yet being so tired living it too. Feeling thankful yet wondering whether is that something i really want. Knowing it may not be the best choice yet want it so badly. Rationally wanted to let go yet your heart and soul do not agree with it. Got what i thought i wanted but ended up feeling differently from what i expected. Working so hard no matter in my studies or relationship yet asking myself back whether i'm really happy doing this. Well the list goes on and on..

Sometimes i just wish to go to somewhere beautiful far faraway where no one knows me and live my own life with the way i want it to be. Or maybe just fly me to another planet and become an alien? No burden, no pressure, no decision, no LIES. Routine sucks. Life's fragile, life short.

You see what i appear to be but you don't know the real me. You can only see what i choose to show, there's so much more that you just don't know. Just like money can't buy everything, 'sorry' can't delete everything. Do you ever think of how i felt when you're happily being close with girls, where i'm missing you badly under another roof? I knew that i don't have the right to omit you from cultivating relationship between you and your so-called 'best friend'. You never understand how awful i've felt. You know, i'm the type of girl that can be so hurt but can still look at you and smile. The type of girl who is willing to brighten your day even if i can't brighten my own.

And now, i'm sick. What a bad timing to get sick. Ulcer all over my mouth and sore throat is approaching too. Having mixed feeling now, because of many issues which i'm not sure how to deal with it. My nose is red like clown now and it's falling anytime soon. And those coughing really hurt my abdomen.

Tears is now my only companion. It's almost 3 in the morning. Another sleepless night i would say.

We always ignore the ones who adore us, adore the ones that ignore us, love the ones who hurt us, and hurt the ones that love us. Isn't it ironic?  

Niteyy and stay tuned :p

The past

Helloooo peeps, i'm back. I've been stop blogging since the year of 2010 due to the multi-task and thousands of apologies for that. I won't deny that i'm a lousy blogger anyway. Whenever i have the mood to blog, i don't have the time, but when i have the time to do so, i don't have the mood. Screw me for procrastinating everything and all the time.


Well, time flies. It's the beginning of the new semester of year 3 study.  During the period of time when i was kinda missing from the 'scene', many changes have been happening in my life.

This is an image that i got it from a friend and i found that it best suits my mess feeling right now. I felt like digging a hole under and hide inside everyday when i woke up from the bed and i knew that i've got to face the reality. Life is like a riding bicycle, you don't fall when you stop pedaling.

I believed that everyone has their own secret, and me too. It's hard not to look back. Sometimes it seems like we sugar coat the past, make it much more shiny that it really was. I  knew that it is only get it or give up, there's no other choice. Beauty outside, beast inside. How long do i need to wake up from the nightmare?
It's sad when someone you know becomes someone you knew, and someone you love, becomes someone you hate. The cheerful smile of mine had gone and maybe gone forever. Where is the man who can heal this fragile life?

First blog of 2010

03/05/2010  Monday

Hello peeps, the lazy bugs is back! My bloggie have been dead for the past few month since October of 2009. It was due to the heavy tasks that i have to work on it which couldn't be omitted. Well, the super short mid-term break had over and here the hell has begun. Didn't manage to get a wink of sleep at all last night. Feeling super tired and sleepy right now but still wanna blog a little before i go to the bed. Anyway, i'm back to Singapore now. Having mixed feeling, was missing certain things there in Pontian but i'm not sure what i'm really missing too. Maybe i'm so used with the freedom i have there and always being around with friend where i can be myself. 

Yesterday was an awful day for me. When i'm not fully recover from my sick yet, here comes the 'outstation of blessing'. I got tanned by the sun and it caused me sun-burned. My skin has become darker and darker day to day. Oh i hate it! Anyway, this first week of classes are quite relaxing where there are no tutorials for the first week of class. Woohoo~

I miss you so much. Wondering if you know or do you feel the same. When i totally lost control over my emotions, fear and mixed feeling started to rule. I think i know deep inside, i would pause and hesitate a moment, all i have to do is to admit and face it. XD

A new beginning comes after an ending

I'm praying really hard for everything to be better in year 2010.